Well hello readers, it’s been a very long time and I have good reasons.
My dear mom passed away suddenly which dropped the bottom out of my world.
The loss of such a beautiful, loving, kind woman is a loss felt by all who know her.
Secondly, my wife has just returned home from major heart surgery and the installation of a pacemaker.
As you can imagine, my world has been extremely busy and I have not been able to find the time to post.
Even if I could post, it would be endless accounts of daily hospital visits to my wife which i’m sure you wouldn’t want to read.
I think I have crossed a line in my writing, I used to simply write for myself but now I am trying to think of my readers (and I know there are a few of you out there!).
Every time I thought about writing (which was admittedly often) I couldn’t start and simply sat there staring at the screen for what felt like hours.
I have heard it said that the best time to write from the heart is during times of high emotion and it is that thought that I kept returning to over and over again.
Though I knew this, I just couldn’t write, so today I feel things have settled down sufficiently to allow me some freedom to write and here I am.
Getting used to life without my mom has been hard, I still expect to pick up the phone and hear her voice and chat about recent events in our lives.
I had the honour of being a bearer at her funeral, she carried me for seven months (I was premature) the least I could do was carry her for a few minutes.
There was a great turnout, a lot of family, friends and coworkers came to pay their respects and say goodbye to a woman who had been such a positive force in their lives.
Coming hot on the heels of mom’s funeral (as in a couple of days later) my wife was admitted to Southampton General Hospital for major heart surgery.
My wife Tracey suffers from a rare connective tissue disorder called Loeys-Dietz Syndrome which amongst other things can cause the aorta (the main artery going to and from the heart) to become enlarged and if untreated can lead to a condition known as Aortic Root Dissection which is where the aorta bursts and is usually fatal.
Thankfully, after running a series of tests and examinations, they discovered that Tracey’s Aortic root was significantly enlarged and surgery was the only option before it got larger and possibly burst.
The last few weeks have been tiring with daily trips to the hospital, seeing Tracey recover quicker and quicker every day and then the pacemaker which she felt had set her recovery back a week or more. Seeing the excellent care and support she received at the hands of the dedicated Doctors and Nurses was a sight to behold.
We are so fortunate in this country to have such an excellent National Health Service and we are grateful every day for Tracey’s recovery due to the care and support she received.
We now have the long road to recovery ahead of us, and to that end we inherited mom’s collapsible wheelchair so Tracey can go out for walks using it for support then when she gets too tired, she can hop in and be pushed by me (which gives me a good cardio workout!).
So that is you all caught up with my life the last month or so since I last posted!. My apologies it is a little longer than you are used to but it seemed I had a lot to say after all!.
Now to do some writing and maybe programming before going up the local shops with Tracey.